xoxocasey asked: I just read your post about freaking out about your mom coming near your bed.. dude i feel the exact same way :/ i flip out on her so much but its not really me talking, its my ocd. i love my mom so much but ocd gets the best of me
I feel so bad for my mom. Because she feels like somehow my OCD is her fault. When it’s actually because of all the stress from my Dad having cancer. I know how much it hurts her. Because it’s pushing her away, and I don’t mean to. I don’t want to push her away. I just don’t want people to get close enough to touch me or certain things of mine. My bed being a huge one. Because I’m so obsessed with it being clean. If I leave my bed and go sit in the living room/go out, I can’t get back in it till I shower. Cannot. Ever. I just see the hurt on her face.. and it breaks my heart. I hate my OCD. It ruins everything for me. I failed high school because I couldn’t go to school because of my anxiety. I didn’t/still don’t do things because of it. My life is ruled by it. I often just want to die because of how much of a battle it is in my own mind. People say they understand all the time. “Everybody is OCD about something.” Except, there is such a huge difference between liking/preferring things a certain way. Than having a mental break down because somebody touched something of yours. I feel so angry that I can’t even handle it. I just scream. I start bawling. I curl into myself, and just want to die. I don’t know how many times I’ve said “I want to die” while having an OCD induced anxiety attack. I’ve had OCD for six years. I don’t even remember what it’s like to not have it. Sometimes the only way I can calm myself down is to hurt myself. Which I never, ever, ever recommend you do. Because it works for like two minutes and then I’m bawling again because I just had to hurt myself to get control over my anxiety. People don’t get it. They really don’t. Try living a day in our shoes. Facing that constant internal battle between logic, and illogic. When your illogical thoughts are screaming and your logical thoughts are nowhere to be found.
I’m sorry this was so long, and rambly. I’m always here if you need to talk.
JC Penney’s new ad for Father’s Day
The text reads:
“First Pals: What makes Dad so cool? He’s the swim coach, tent maker, best friend, bike fixer and hug giver—all rolled into one. Or two.” The text at the bottom reads: “Real-life dads, Todd Koch and Cooper Smith with their children Claire and Mason.”
eclecticwiccan asked: I hope you enjoy(ed) your hot chocolate, you deserve to treat yourself :)
I did enjoy it, thank you! :3 Everybody does deserve a treat. C:
So in one week we’ve got three cannibal cases in Florida, a man spitting blood all over a highway patrol officer, another man disemboweling himself and then throwing his intestines at two police officers, and a woman beheading her infant and eating it’s brain…….
The awkward moment when the dude that spit blood on the patrol officer was drunk and bashed himself against the window of the patrol car. Which this isn’t the first or the last time an officer will have blood spit at them. The man that disemboweled himself lives in New Jersey. The woman that killed and ate part of her baby’s brain happened three years ago in Texas.
Anonymous asked: Kripke had almost nothing to do with season 7
WELL. It’s not like I’m legitimately angry at whoever wrote the season. I was just joking around. Your titties, calm them.
